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Name: Jeff
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Birthday: 10/8/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Running into things, people, well lit rooms.
Expertise: I am highly skilled in sales, interrogation, and emotional manipulation. I feel somewhat redundant...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Construction
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Member Since:
11/30/2004
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| I dreamt I was thirsty. So thirsty in fact that there was absolutely no doubt in my mind that if I did not drink soon I would die. The first place my dream took me to was the kitchen where I had glass after glass of water. Suddenly I was outside and standing next to a huge swimming pool. I waded in until I was neck deep and then submerged my head in the water and guzzled every drop I could handle, but my thirst was not quenched. This went on for quite some time and I remember finally finding other people who watched in amazement as I drank without stopping, but my thirst was not quenched. I woke to find myself feeling as thirsty as ever and it took no time for me to be in the kitchen drinking greedily from the tap as my thirst was, at last, actually quenched by real water. It was ecstasy as best I can imagine it. Plain tap water was the sole object of my desire at that moment and remained so until my belly was full of that beautiful liquid. Isaiah 55:1-2"Come, everyone who thirsts,
come to the waters;
and he who has no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without price.
Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread,
and your labor for that which does not satisfy?
Listen diligently to me, and eat what is good,
and delight yourselves in rich food.”I suppose you all knew where I was going with that and now that I’ve added the passage you already know what I am going to say and may well find the following to be rather tedious. Even so it is so beautiful a thing, I would imagine like kissing one’s spouse, that no amount of repetition would in anyway detract from the value of these words nor harm anyone who would read it. That said, I will continue. Are there those who thirst? Are there really people so desperate for the good things that God supplies that they would do anything to have them? Thirst implies so much more than a craving. If one desires a piece of chocolate he will hardly die if he is restricted from it yet is supplied with all other foods. Thirst suggests not a desire for a certain flavor, but a desire for life itself. One can go weeks with no food but the third day without water if often the last day on this earth. So does anyone thirst? I should hope so. And if they thirst can they be satisfied? Yes.Matthew 5:6 “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” It is puzzling to consider that God provides a living water. More so to find that one cannot possibly do anything to obtain it. It sits well beyond the reach of any human attempt at self righteous works with a little sign on it that says “free for the taking.” No doubt there are thousands of “thirsty” people who have wasted much of their lives leaping to grasp this “free” sustenance. It would seem that if it were free then all could have it with no strings attached and that death would be an irrelevant aspect of the past which people would simply shake their heads at in disbelief rather than working their whole lives to flee from it. Sadly this water is not free! No more free than the innumerable trinkets people purchase to relieve the thirst that tickles at the backs of their throats. Sadly, these people waste their money on water that does not quench thirst any more than a dream fixes the fact that a person is dehydrated. A young man desires emotional intimacy that only God can truly provide and wastes his heart on the dry dangerous love of a woman who has no heart for God. Another fellow, realizing that his heart is hardening with time, reaches for drink after drink of alcohol to simulate the emotion that once resulted from a tender heart. A proud young man who knows he has wandered from his first love composes page upon page of scripture based dissertations to cover the lack of biblical foundation he really has. So the question is presented to all of them: “Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy?” Why would you expend so much of your time and treasure on these things that are only ashes in your thirsty throats? Why would you continue to drink when you knew the very first drops were poison? Finally, why have you wasted every cent you had on the things which you knew well were not life? Barren, poor, and still thirsty we hear the same cry offered to us: “without money, come and buy.” Realizing the wickedness in one’s own heart it is tempting to scoff at that invitation. How could the eternal life that God has provided be free? How could I suddenly own what I never could obtain? The answer? It is not free and only One could truly obtain or own it. This life is not available because any person so inclined can just grab it. This life is available because the hand of the risen Christ reached out and took it for us. He stands and says Come, take what I have bought for you! “Come buy wine and milk without money and without cost.” The value of this life is immeasurable. The price paid is beyond thinking, but the love of Christ was such that He took on death, and purchased life for those who are willing to simply admit they are thirsty and cannot quench their own thirst through any mechanism of their own devising. So the question is still “does anyone thirst?” Humility is the path Christ took to obtain this life for His children. Humility is the only way His children ever took advantage of the gift. If you thirst. If you have found that the waters of this earth are unsatisfying despite drinking beyond reason. You must assume that you aren’t drinking real water. You have been gorging yourself on a dream which will never satisfy. It is well past time to wake from the life you’ve led before and drink deeply of the waters that flow from the open hand of the Lord Jesus Christ.Thank you and goodnight. | | |
| I'm gonna be crying lot this semester.
So four people that I love all talked together about the same topic
and all had totally different thoughts all aimed at someone other than
me and yet I think I learned the most from the conversation.
That was then but this is now.
I'm alone and I can't sleep.
While waking any family member would likely do the trick I don't think
they would be very good company at this hour and they all have to get
up soon and start their days. So I'm still alone and I can't
sleep.
Now someone could sign onto aim and we could talk but I don't see that
happening since everyone I may have talked to is busy on tuesday night
with something far more important than distracting Jeff from the fact
that he's alone and can't sleep.
I'm not sure what's happening to my maturity level but honestly I've
regressed(digressed?) to reliant K. I thought I was cured of them
but recently I took them to the gym with me to drown out
EVERYTHING<----(loaded "everything") else and since then I've found
myself mildly impressed by their seemingly calvinistic bent and majorly
impressed at their ability to affect my demeanor positively to the
point that sometimes I forget that I'm alone and can't sleep.
So there's this nifty little verse that I'm sure you've all read or
heard quoted one way or the other that say that "He" (God the Father,
the lover of your souls, The All Consuming Fire, The Good shepherd,
Abba) "gives to his beloved sleep." It's in Psalm 127 verse 2 and
it's talking about priorities. The other way it's interpreted is "He
gives to his beloved while they sleep." This actually makes more
sense to dull people like me because it was just saying in previous
verses that (paraphrased) 1.God must be the head of all work for
success to be possible 2.running oneself ragged is foolish because God
isn't constrained by time.
You/I can't improve the blessing you will receive from Him by staying up
into the wee hours of the morning and rising with little to no sleep
trying to meet every little agenda, please every person, answer every
question, complete the fifty chapters of scripture reading you "forgot"
to do the last two months.
God is in control. He's in love. He has chosen to bless His
children and believe it or not His doesn't have to pause in providing
for us while we lose control and sleep.
I don't like to lose control.
I don't like to sleep.
In fact sleep and the need I have for it are two of the most humbling things in my life.
But God is providing for me even when I stop moving. He somehow
was doing fine before me and will complete the work He started in me.
I don't know why I can't wrap my brain around it but I desperately want to.
It would be so nice to lay down in His hands and say "I don't know what
you've planned to do while I'm sleeping but if it's from you I'll take
it, period."
That would make life so much more livable on those nights when I'm alone and can't sleep.
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One table over there's a couple. They appear to be in their eighties. They lean intently over a crossword puzzle and a plate of dry pretzels, reading glasses resting in the depressions created by years of wear. She points, he leans close to the paper, his elbow brushes hers, and I wonder: did his heart beat a little faster? Does he still feel better close to her than anywhere else on earth? Time changes things. But hearts don't fill. Or so I assume.
The man sitting beside his wife in the second floor doesn't think "good run, I'm done here." He holds on and, when he must says goodbye as if staring into the sun.
SO.
Yes, Jeff has lost his mind.
I know one person who I desperately desire NOT read this because she'll know for sure that Jeff isn't mature enough to even ponder such things. Alas she will read and read into it and I'll have no good way to explain.
In my nursing courses I am often told that my questions are not relevant to nursing level students because they are too medical.
So I suppose the best explanation would be that, while I'm not prepared to benefit from the answers or even ask all the right questions, a growing mind will still ponder what it needs years to understand.
So, please, bear with me.
I'm working hereI was lazy and just copied and pasted this from biblegateway.com (which btw ROCKS)
And while some of you may never know why, it's TOTALLY relevant.
Proverbs 5:15-23 15 Drink water from your own cistern,
running water from your own well. 16 Should your springs overflow in the streets,
your streams of water in the public squares? 17 Let them be yours alone,
never to be shared with strangers. 18 May your fountain be blessed,
and may you rejoice in the wife of your youth. 19 A loving doe, a graceful deer—
may her breasts satisfy you always,
may you ever be captivated by her love. 20 Why be captivated, my son, by an adulteress?
Why embrace the bosom of another man's wife? 21 For a man's ways are in full view of the LORD,
and he examines all his paths. 22 The evil deeds of a wicked man ensnare him;
the cords of his sin hold him fast. 23 He will die for lack of discipline,
led astray by his own great folly.
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